Don't remember what I did all this week, but on Wednesday I went Sal Army bell ringing with Ted, sang a few Christmas songs very loudly and off key. Was hilarious watching people laugh at us as they walked by! Think we got more $ that way too, cause many complements were given by old ladies that said they enjoyed our cheerfulness. Excited to see how much we raised since it was a tripled day! :D
I also watched all the Fruits Basket Animaes, found they didn't complete the story, and started reading the 136 Mangas of them to find out what happens. Oh dear. What did I get myself into? :p
Visited a few neighbor friends. GOT TO MEET MY GODMOTHER!!!! She moved to Cali when I was 4. LONG story I shall tell sometime, it is pretty sweet! :D I had fun with that. Awesome.
Practically hurt myself sumersaulting down a hill. Returned THAT dangerous sled. LOL.
Put up the tree, finished up shopping, went to Christmas eve service and grandparents house tonight. So far not a very profitable break. But it brings time for reflection and thought. LOTS of thoughts. . .
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Far to frusterated right now to write, so I shall just say I really wanna talk about dependency on friends again, and the fickleness they bring. It really shows during Christmas time. Meh. I am frusterated with homework dealings and plans. Frusterated with family. Frusterated with prayer life. Frusterated with my own pessimistic attitude. IT IS CHRISTMAS! I am SUPPOSED to be joyful. Hmm.
Well, MERRY CHRISTMAS my dear friends! I love you very very much. Remember to realize the TRUE meaning of Christ's birth. He came to die for us out of love. He is no longer that baby in the stable, but rizen and alive and here with us NOW! <3
“For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.” - Isaiah 9:6
Friday, December 24, 2010
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Sammich Sunday
Well, I have not yet collected all my thoughts about today's topic. Has a lot to do with being dependent on friends and what you allow to define yourself. Shall think about this more. Was thinking and praying as I went on a walk today and then came back and exercised some indoors. Praying a lot for friends. Pondering what to do to help. Seems as if all my friends are having issues all at once! I enjoy knowing that they trust me enough to confide life. :)
I'm trying to be productive during break!
Wednesday: had intense conversations with friends
Thursday: unpacked, watched Free Willy
Friday: did laundry, knit, wrapped presents
Saturday: did laundry, read a book, went to movie with friends!!
Sunday: sammich sunday, wrapped presents, did a bit of laundry, went on walk, went on errands, minor exercising, watched TV, tried to convince fam to put up Christmas tree, called a friend.
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So today was Sandwich Sunday, better known as Sammich Sunday to the teens. The Alley Church canceled Sunday services to have a novel hands-on type of service. Their goal was to make and pack 10,000 sandwiches for the ministry called 363 days. This ministry's name highlights that Thanksgiving and Christmas are the two days of the year focused on by most charites (and ministries even too). 363 wants to reach out to the broken and hungry EVERY day of the year though! This is cool. They preach the gospel mainly to the homeless at the Sal Army Harbor Light Mission, but take the sandwiches to the streets as well.
This reminds me of an outreach at school called Streetlight. Often people won't accept a prayer, but if offered a sandwich shall take that. Sometimes their heart is warmed and they shall be open to a prayer as well! Amazing. The guy who started 363 came and spoke between the two services and talked about how most homeless have mental issues and the sandwich might be their only meal of the day. Or perhaps one of two meals if they are fortunate enough to live close to a mission home.
Anyways, all us church go-ers managed to be so efficient that we blew up our goal. LOL! 5,000 sandwiches in the first 20 minutes, over 8,000 in the first hour and a half. After the second "service" (which both included prayer and a couple worship songs) we had made a total of over 12,500 sandwiches!! WOW!! They ran out of cheese and bread and had to go buy more before the second service, then had to cut that short cause we just plumb ran out of the donated supplies. Haha, it was quite amazing and all guided by our Lord.
Felt good to take action on all that we have been learning. To be a part of something larger than myself can know. Quote from pastor: "Now...take it to the streets!" Live out your Christians walk with actions and not just all talk.
James 2:22
You see that his faith and his actions were working together, and his faith was made complete by what he did.
Titus 1:16
They claim to know God, but by their actions they deny him.
Do not just claim to know God, prove that you do. Make sure you are able to describe your faith to others, especially non-believers. In this way prepare yourself for that which God will bring opportunities to do - share the gospel! The love of God!
My fav for the day...
1 John 3:18
Dear children, let us not love with words or speech but with actions and in truth.
Blessings my dearest friends...walk in peace.
I'm trying to be productive during break!
Wednesday: had intense conversations with friends
Thursday: unpacked, watched Free Willy
Friday: did laundry, knit, wrapped presents
Saturday: did laundry, read a book, went to movie with friends!!
Sunday: sammich sunday, wrapped presents, did a bit of laundry, went on walk, went on errands, minor exercising, watched TV, tried to convince fam to put up Christmas tree, called a friend.
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So today was Sandwich Sunday, better known as Sammich Sunday to the teens. The Alley Church canceled Sunday services to have a novel hands-on type of service. Their goal was to make and pack 10,000 sandwiches for the ministry called 363 days. This ministry's name highlights that Thanksgiving and Christmas are the two days of the year focused on by most charites (and ministries even too). 363 wants to reach out to the broken and hungry EVERY day of the year though! This is cool. They preach the gospel mainly to the homeless at the Sal Army Harbor Light Mission, but take the sandwiches to the streets as well.
This reminds me of an outreach at school called Streetlight. Often people won't accept a prayer, but if offered a sandwich shall take that. Sometimes their heart is warmed and they shall be open to a prayer as well! Amazing. The guy who started 363 came and spoke between the two services and talked about how most homeless have mental issues and the sandwich might be their only meal of the day. Or perhaps one of two meals if they are fortunate enough to live close to a mission home.
Anyways, all us church go-ers managed to be so efficient that we blew up our goal. LOL! 5,000 sandwiches in the first 20 minutes, over 8,000 in the first hour and a half. After the second "service" (which both included prayer and a couple worship songs) we had made a total of over 12,500 sandwiches!! WOW!! They ran out of cheese and bread and had to go buy more before the second service, then had to cut that short cause we just plumb ran out of the donated supplies. Haha, it was quite amazing and all guided by our Lord.
Felt good to take action on all that we have been learning. To be a part of something larger than myself can know. Quote from pastor: "Now...take it to the streets!" Live out your Christians walk with actions and not just all talk.
James 2:22
You see that his faith and his actions were working together, and his faith was made complete by what he did.
Titus 1:16
They claim to know God, but by their actions they deny him.
Do not just claim to know God, prove that you do. Make sure you are able to describe your faith to others, especially non-believers. In this way prepare yourself for that which God will bring opportunities to do - share the gospel! The love of God!
My fav for the day...
1 John 3:18
Dear children, let us not love with words or speech but with actions and in truth.
Blessings my dearest friends...walk in peace.
Saturday, December 18, 2010
What Can Man Do To Me?
Psalm 56:11
in God I trust and am not afraid. What can man do to me?
Well actually, the answer to that questions is...a LOT.
Friends are fickle. They move away and forget about you. They make new friends. They get boyfriends and you get replaced. Which I guess makes sense, cause it sounds cuter to say you are dating your best friend and fell in love with your best friend. Not only that, but it kinda should be that way. Your souls are thereby connected in marriage, so you are basically one person. Bestest friends.
Just makes those of us who were previously considered your best friend feel...well...a little left out.
SO now it got me to thinking about trust issues. I don't know if I have trust issues, but I know a lot of people do. So maybe it is because people ARE so fickle! "You cannot trust a friend to be your friend forever." A sad quote, but rather true.
I wonder....
We can always trust God! That is not even a question. Maybe though, that is why people have such a hard time trusting God and knowing that He can be trusted! Because we have no tangilbe example here on earth of true faithfulness. Jesus was that example, but we see him not now. We can read about him, but somehow that doesn't seem like enough.
We want to rely on others here in the world becuase that is what everyone does. People are all around us, and it is just the natural thing to rely on them for everything. To depend on them to be there. We do it without even realizing it. We have expectations for people even when we think we require nothing of them. Those presuppositions are there. . .
I don't know what else to say on the matter. I am still figuring it out myself. It truly hurts when friends shun you and just generally forget about you or don't appear to care. Mostly they don't realize it and do still care about you (or so they say so), but actions for me speak much louder than words. Another statement that digs deep to the heart during times like this. But it is so true. Words are fickle just as much as people. After all, it is the people who say these fickle words. But actions show the true heart behind the matter. Time is big for me. Time and actions prove all.
Have you ever taken one of those tests that tell you what your primary love language is? At the age of adulthood if you haven't than you probably already know what yours are. But it is a neat tool to see if you have guessed right. If you "know" yourself. LOL. Mine is quality time and acts of service. Just goes to show how much more I believe in the actions speak louder than words dealy...
SO yeah, that is all I have to say on the matter. Any stories or thoughts to add my friends?
Blessings to you all, I love you dearly and shall try to be a faithful friend.
Psalm 31:14
But I trust in you, LORD; I say, “You are my God.”
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Quote made tonight by a friend...
in God I trust and am not afraid. What can man do to me?
Well actually, the answer to that questions is...a LOT.
Friends are fickle. They move away and forget about you. They make new friends. They get boyfriends and you get replaced. Which I guess makes sense, cause it sounds cuter to say you are dating your best friend and fell in love with your best friend. Not only that, but it kinda should be that way. Your souls are thereby connected in marriage, so you are basically one person. Bestest friends.
Just makes those of us who were previously considered your best friend feel...well...a little left out.
SO now it got me to thinking about trust issues. I don't know if I have trust issues, but I know a lot of people do. So maybe it is because people ARE so fickle! "You cannot trust a friend to be your friend forever." A sad quote, but rather true.
I wonder....
We can always trust God! That is not even a question. Maybe though, that is why people have such a hard time trusting God and knowing that He can be trusted! Because we have no tangilbe example here on earth of true faithfulness. Jesus was that example, but we see him not now. We can read about him, but somehow that doesn't seem like enough.
We want to rely on others here in the world becuase that is what everyone does. People are all around us, and it is just the natural thing to rely on them for everything. To depend on them to be there. We do it without even realizing it. We have expectations for people even when we think we require nothing of them. Those presuppositions are there. . .
I don't know what else to say on the matter. I am still figuring it out myself. It truly hurts when friends shun you and just generally forget about you or don't appear to care. Mostly they don't realize it and do still care about you (or so they say so), but actions for me speak much louder than words. Another statement that digs deep to the heart during times like this. But it is so true. Words are fickle just as much as people. After all, it is the people who say these fickle words. But actions show the true heart behind the matter. Time is big for me. Time and actions prove all.
Have you ever taken one of those tests that tell you what your primary love language is? At the age of adulthood if you haven't than you probably already know what yours are. But it is a neat tool to see if you have guessed right. If you "know" yourself. LOL. Mine is quality time and acts of service. Just goes to show how much more I believe in the actions speak louder than words dealy...
SO yeah, that is all I have to say on the matter. Any stories or thoughts to add my friends?
Blessings to you all, I love you dearly and shall try to be a faithful friend.
Psalm 31:14
But I trust in you, LORD; I say, “You are my God.”
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Quote made tonight by a friend...
Life is like dancing,
as long as you are confident you will do fine.
I likes it. (We went to see Narnia: Voyage of the Dawn Treader together with our old homeschool group. Good times!! :D Made me happy to see all their lovely faces again, though we don't all talk as much as we used to.
Friday, December 17, 2010
Fruitless One-Sided Love
So when was the last time I posted? OH, right before I spent another 12hrs studying chemistry...seriously. It woulda been 13 hrs had we not taken a break to go get free pancakes down at the nest. So after staying up til 2:30 am just about every night this week studying for finals, I caused a sore throat. Meh. Need to sleep more to recover, but cannot get myself to sleep more than 8 hrs at a time. Just not used to so much sleep! haha, kinda funny.
So the Bio test was ok...slopped answers down for the evolution essay questions becuase I did not study enough for them. Irk.
Wasn't happy about OT. I literally GUESSED at every answer on the exam because I did not know there was a 3rd page of the study guide, and didn't study any of it until 2 hrs before bed. Yeah...final grades come in at unprofessionally random times. Basically whenever the prof decides to grade everything. LOL.
Happy to go see Narnia tomorrow!
Haha, I am changing the subject alot, but I was just watching animae and got me to thinking about things. (Fruits Basket episode 18 in case you are wondering).
Is one-sided love very bad? Defined as in being so clingly to someone that you do not care about their feelings or what they want to do, who they care to hang out with, and such like that? Because if you are being so in love with someone that you want to spend every minute possible with them and protect them, it cannot be a very healthy relationship.
I often think I am like that. I crave friendship so much that I cling to those people who actually DO want to hang out with me. I shall text them and email/chat with them incessantly...and then I think they get annoyed with me beign so pestery. I laugh it off with a joke, saying that I am being "stalkerish." But really, I just want them to want to hang out with me. I think I have severe attachment issues of being insecure.
How can that be fixed?
A lot of prayer me thinks. I have not been in love with my Lord at all deep enough.
What about one-sided love with God?! Cause if He is always wanting to hang out with us and constantly trying to get our attention, do we not get annoyed? Do we have a reason to get annoyed? Not really. He is our savior and creator after all. But we just want to have fun sometimes with other friends besides Jesus. That is so wrong!
You cannot make someone love you, and sometimes you just have to back off and wait. Perhaps that is the reason that I feel so dead in feelings? Meaning that I don't feel like God is with me. I know He is there, and I am not like, depressed or anything. Just...IDK...neutral? Like a neutron in the nucleus. Sitting there being dead weight. Not doing much. Not even helping the atom by having a charge and causing others to be attracted to me to be friends!
I am probably not making any sense. I am just trying to relate how we are so obstinate sometimes agaisnt seeking God ourselves, and maybe that is why He backs off from always being "in our face" with revealing amazing insight from the Bible and life to us. Maybe He is testing to see if we WANT to spend time with Him? Maybe He wants us to seek Him, letting Him know we WANT to be with Him! Otherwise if all we do is go to church and Bible studies, not having prayer or reading or silent time with God on our own, the relationship is very one-sided. We want and take, but never give back. God tries to get our attention and hang out with us, and we reject Him. That is so super sad. I wanna change that in my life.
God, it is time we have a chat. :) I know you have been waiting for this for awhile. . .
I encourage you my friends to not forget to seek after God this Christmas break and after. Remember to have a relationship with God that is two way! Both talking and listening. :)
Psalm 32:10
Many are the woes of the wicked, but the LORD’s unfailing love surrounds the one who trusts in him.
John 16:27
No, the Father himself loves you because you have loved me and have believed that I came from God.
1 Corinthians 8:3
But whoever loves God is known by God.
2 Corinthians 9:7
Each of you should give what you have decided in your heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver.
Psalm 69:32
The poor will see and be glad— you who seek God, may your hearts live!
Psalm 122:9
For the sake of the house of the LORD our God, I will seek your prosperity.
Hebrews 11:6
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.
How amazingly great is His reward of love when we seek Him!!! I want my heart to live only seeking God's love. I don't wanna change the world through pointless deeds if I shall not be seeking my Lord. That is fruitless...
Ephesians 5:11
Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them.
Seek God my friends, don't depend on Him seeking you. It will continue to be done, but it shall not be half as fufilling a relationship as if you seek Him back. <3
Deuteronomy 4:29
But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul.
1 Chronicles 22:19
Now devote your heart and soul to seeking the LORD your God.
So the Bio test was ok...slopped answers down for the evolution essay questions becuase I did not study enough for them. Irk.
Wasn't happy about OT. I literally GUESSED at every answer on the exam because I did not know there was a 3rd page of the study guide, and didn't study any of it until 2 hrs before bed. Yeah...final grades come in at unprofessionally random times. Basically whenever the prof decides to grade everything. LOL.
Happy to go see Narnia tomorrow!
Haha, I am changing the subject alot, but I was just watching animae and got me to thinking about things. (Fruits Basket episode 18 in case you are wondering).
Is one-sided love very bad? Defined as in being so clingly to someone that you do not care about their feelings or what they want to do, who they care to hang out with, and such like that? Because if you are being so in love with someone that you want to spend every minute possible with them and protect them, it cannot be a very healthy relationship.
I often think I am like that. I crave friendship so much that I cling to those people who actually DO want to hang out with me. I shall text them and email/chat with them incessantly...and then I think they get annoyed with me beign so pestery. I laugh it off with a joke, saying that I am being "stalkerish." But really, I just want them to want to hang out with me. I think I have severe attachment issues of being insecure.
How can that be fixed?
A lot of prayer me thinks. I have not been in love with my Lord at all deep enough.
What about one-sided love with God?! Cause if He is always wanting to hang out with us and constantly trying to get our attention, do we not get annoyed? Do we have a reason to get annoyed? Not really. He is our savior and creator after all. But we just want to have fun sometimes with other friends besides Jesus. That is so wrong!
You cannot make someone love you, and sometimes you just have to back off and wait. Perhaps that is the reason that I feel so dead in feelings? Meaning that I don't feel like God is with me. I know He is there, and I am not like, depressed or anything. Just...IDK...neutral? Like a neutron in the nucleus. Sitting there being dead weight. Not doing much. Not even helping the atom by having a charge and causing others to be attracted to me to be friends!
I am probably not making any sense. I am just trying to relate how we are so obstinate sometimes agaisnt seeking God ourselves, and maybe that is why He backs off from always being "in our face" with revealing amazing insight from the Bible and life to us. Maybe He is testing to see if we WANT to spend time with Him? Maybe He wants us to seek Him, letting Him know we WANT to be with Him! Otherwise if all we do is go to church and Bible studies, not having prayer or reading or silent time with God on our own, the relationship is very one-sided. We want and take, but never give back. God tries to get our attention and hang out with us, and we reject Him. That is so super sad. I wanna change that in my life.
God, it is time we have a chat. :) I know you have been waiting for this for awhile. . .
I encourage you my friends to not forget to seek after God this Christmas break and after. Remember to have a relationship with God that is two way! Both talking and listening. :)
Psalm 32:10
Many are the woes of the wicked, but the LORD’s unfailing love surrounds the one who trusts in him.
John 16:27
No, the Father himself loves you because you have loved me and have believed that I came from God.
1 Corinthians 8:3
But whoever loves God is known by God.
2 Corinthians 9:7
Each of you should give what you have decided in your heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver.
Psalm 69:32
The poor will see and be glad— you who seek God, may your hearts live!
Psalm 122:9
For the sake of the house of the LORD our God, I will seek your prosperity.
Hebrews 11:6
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.
How amazingly great is His reward of love when we seek Him!!! I want my heart to live only seeking God's love. I don't wanna change the world through pointless deeds if I shall not be seeking my Lord. That is fruitless...
Ephesians 5:11
Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them.
Seek God my friends, don't depend on Him seeking you. It will continue to be done, but it shall not be half as fufilling a relationship as if you seek Him back. <3
Deuteronomy 4:29
But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul.
1 Chronicles 22:19
Now devote your heart and soul to seeking the LORD your God.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Know When To Have Fun!
Studying chemistry for 5 hours straight? Check.
TeeHee walked by me today, we had a mini conversation with only eye and facial expressions. Quite clever now that I think about it. Though I could understand her she probably could not understand me. I can be monotone with expressions. LOL.
Went to the BarlowGirl concert with Germany. Was such fun! OK, so they say today was the rival snowstorm of '98? I think that is the right year. Dunno. I woke up this morning and thought my eyes were just really foggy! I could hardly see the trees below our window on the 3rd floor! And there is now around 15 inches of snow piled up on our window sill. Yikes. I hear MOA even closed early! Shuttles were not running, and the advice was to stay indoors. But did we listen? NOPE! We had tickets to see BarlowGirl, and I was not going to give them up when I just bought them yesterday. :)
SO after tromping out to Germany's car, we tromped BACK inside to borrow 2 shovels to dig out the 3 feet of snow that was blocking us in. Returned the shovels and headed out, only to get stuck not 5 feet from the entrance gate! EEK! Most people would have said to turn back, but we ignored common sense and ventured on. It took us over an hour to get there, but not because of the unplowed roads. We took a couple wrong turns you see, and knew not where we were headed. LOL.
After arriving at the concert an hour late and being famished (all the fast food places were closed! (their lots were clogged with snow) we walked around and got some animal crackers from a remote vending machine. I am so glad Germany is good with getting back the way we came! Haha.
So we only got to listen to the speaker and BarlowGirl, missed out on the other bands and musicians. But we came to see BarlowGirl anyways. Disapointed a little that they sang mostly Christmas songs, I wanted to hear their originals! After some hilarious banter between the sisters and a fail of an interactive 12 days of Christmas song, the concert spontaneously turned into a worship service. I don't know if Germany liked it, but it was just what I needed. WOW has God been good to me! Whenever I have been getting these deep hurting pangs in my heart that something is terribly wrong and start to get very depressed, God knows what I need to cheer up. Tonight it was some adventure in the snow drifts with a friend, and God directly ministering to me through the concert. How those women knew I needed time of prayer and passionate God seeking I know not, but I do thank my savior for bringing that to their attention. Whether it was just for me or others, I thank Him. Isn't he just the best?! He totally is.
So after that supernatural experience, I forgoed the urge to get a poster or t-shirt and we left. Haha, thankfully our car was not towed...we parked in not a parking space in the lot. LOL.
Since all the food places were closed we went to target and got a cheese, meat, and cracker party tray. I suggested we sit in the dark Starbucks area and eat. It was 15 minutes before close and quite hilarious. My fav was when we were picking out what to buy, an employee walked by and was quite taken aback, asking if I was ok. As if I looked sick? LOL!!! Most hilarious encounter of the day.
So then we drove back home with far less problems than we had getting there, and now I am finished applying for scholarships and strangely hyper and thirsty from the salty dinner. :) Very happy though and wanting someone to talk to. Whom might I find at 2 in the morning? JESUS, my bestie. <3
Good night my friends...or should I say Good Morn? :)
Have a happy Sunday, finals are upon us!
4 days.
Quote from a friend: Move on, it is just a chapter in the past. But don't close the book, just turn the page.
TeeHee walked by me today, we had a mini conversation with only eye and facial expressions. Quite clever now that I think about it. Though I could understand her she probably could not understand me. I can be monotone with expressions. LOL.
Went to the BarlowGirl concert with Germany. Was such fun! OK, so they say today was the rival snowstorm of '98? I think that is the right year. Dunno. I woke up this morning and thought my eyes were just really foggy! I could hardly see the trees below our window on the 3rd floor! And there is now around 15 inches of snow piled up on our window sill. Yikes. I hear MOA even closed early! Shuttles were not running, and the advice was to stay indoors. But did we listen? NOPE! We had tickets to see BarlowGirl, and I was not going to give them up when I just bought them yesterday. :)
SO after tromping out to Germany's car, we tromped BACK inside to borrow 2 shovels to dig out the 3 feet of snow that was blocking us in. Returned the shovels and headed out, only to get stuck not 5 feet from the entrance gate! EEK! Most people would have said to turn back, but we ignored common sense and ventured on. It took us over an hour to get there, but not because of the unplowed roads. We took a couple wrong turns you see, and knew not where we were headed. LOL.
After arriving at the concert an hour late and being famished (all the fast food places were closed! (their lots were clogged with snow) we walked around and got some animal crackers from a remote vending machine. I am so glad Germany is good with getting back the way we came! Haha.
So we only got to listen to the speaker and BarlowGirl, missed out on the other bands and musicians. But we came to see BarlowGirl anyways. Disapointed a little that they sang mostly Christmas songs, I wanted to hear their originals! After some hilarious banter between the sisters and a fail of an interactive 12 days of Christmas song, the concert spontaneously turned into a worship service. I don't know if Germany liked it, but it was just what I needed. WOW has God been good to me! Whenever I have been getting these deep hurting pangs in my heart that something is terribly wrong and start to get very depressed, God knows what I need to cheer up. Tonight it was some adventure in the snow drifts with a friend, and God directly ministering to me through the concert. How those women knew I needed time of prayer and passionate God seeking I know not, but I do thank my savior for bringing that to their attention. Whether it was just for me or others, I thank Him. Isn't he just the best?! He totally is.
So after that supernatural experience, I forgoed the urge to get a poster or t-shirt and we left. Haha, thankfully our car was not towed...we parked in not a parking space in the lot. LOL.
Since all the food places were closed we went to target and got a cheese, meat, and cracker party tray. I suggested we sit in the dark Starbucks area and eat. It was 15 minutes before close and quite hilarious. My fav was when we were picking out what to buy, an employee walked by and was quite taken aback, asking if I was ok. As if I looked sick? LOL!!! Most hilarious encounter of the day.
So then we drove back home with far less problems than we had getting there, and now I am finished applying for scholarships and strangely hyper and thirsty from the salty dinner. :) Very happy though and wanting someone to talk to. Whom might I find at 2 in the morning? JESUS, my bestie. <3
Good night my friends...or should I say Good Morn? :)
Have a happy Sunday, finals are upon us!
4 days.
Quote from a friend: Move on, it is just a chapter in the past. But don't close the book, just turn the page.
Philippians 3:13-14
13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.Keep Holding On
I awoke this morning to find a text on my phone from my mom. She sends lenghty ones (much like me!) and it was super encouraging! It was also encouraging to think that not only was she thinking of me, but perhaps she is seeking after God more than before to be so in tune with Him that He would let her know that I really was depressed and needed the strengthening today!
Here is what it said...
"Good Morning. Thinking again about you so here it is: Neh. 8:10. God is saying laugh at the devil because the enemy has no right to even have the idea of victory over God's child - you. Rise up and take authority, the victory IS YOURS but the battle belongs to the Lord! He always wins and He is in you so you get to in too. :) Make your confession out of great hope (expectation) and faith that God is on your side. Don't confess out of desperation.
Ps. 68:1-3, Heb. 11:1, Ps. 9:1-3"
Isn't that just the sweetest and most amazing long text? :) God knows what you need. Ask Him to give you joy and strength as we embark on this finals journey together...
Also, last night I was reading my devo book and the passage was about speaking to yourself instead of listening to yourself. TOTALLY what God has been teaching and showing me these past few days!! That I need to not listen to my negative self, but teach myself and speak the ways of the Lord to myself. It is not others job to get you out of depression. Nope, you gotta do that yourself. God is so so good! He knows what you need to hear. I love you my Jesus!
Nehemiah 8:10
Nehemiah said, “Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have nothing prepared. This day is holy to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength.”
Psalm 68:1-3
May God arise, may his enemies be scattered;
may his foes flee before him.
2 May you blow them away like smoke—
as wax melts before the fire,
may the wicked perish before God.
3 But may the righteous be glad
and rejoice before God; may they be happy and joyful
Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Psalm 9:1-3
I will give thanks to you, LORD, with all my heart;
I will tell of all your wonderful deeds.
2 I will be glad and rejoice in you;
I will sing the praises of your name, O Most High.
3 My enemies turn back;
they stumble and perish before you.
Remember to give thanks and to praise God through this difficult and stressful time. It does not have to be stressful when we are filled with the joy of Jesus!! :D
Praying for your strength and joy this week my friends. May you be blessed with smiles and laughter from Jesus our king!
Listen to this song...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Gcrx2Ab0FM
Together we stand. God is by your side. He has your hand. He won't give in or give up on you, just keep holding on! We shall make it through this week. Just stay strong! He is here for you. Nothing you can say or do will change that, for the truth is He will never leave you or forsake you.
Now go and hit those books, knowing that Jesus is the best study p
artner of all!
Here is what it said...
"Good Morning. Thinking again about you so here it is: Neh. 8:10. God is saying laugh at the devil because the enemy has no right to even have the idea of victory over God's child - you. Rise up and take authority, the victory IS YOURS but the battle belongs to the Lord! He always wins and He is in you so you get to in too. :) Make your confession out of great hope (expectation) and faith that God is on your side. Don't confess out of desperation.
Ps. 68:1-3, Heb. 11:1, Ps. 9:1-3"
Isn't that just the sweetest and most amazing long text? :) God knows what you need. Ask Him to give you joy and strength as we embark on this finals journey together...
Also, last night I was reading my devo book and the passage was about speaking to yourself instead of listening to yourself. TOTALLY what God has been teaching and showing me these past few days!! That I need to not listen to my negative self, but teach myself and speak the ways of the Lord to myself. It is not others job to get you out of depression. Nope, you gotta do that yourself. God is so so good! He knows what you need to hear. I love you my Jesus!
Nehemiah 8:10
Nehemiah said, “Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have nothing prepared. This day is holy to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength.”
Psalm 68:1-3
May God arise, may his enemies be scattered;
may his foes flee before him.
2 May you blow them away like smoke—
as wax melts before the fire,
may the wicked perish before God.
3 But may the righteous be glad
and rejoice before God; may they be happy and joyful
Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Psalm 9:1-3
I will give thanks to you, LORD, with all my heart;
I will tell of all your wonderful deeds.
2 I will be glad and rejoice in you;
I will sing the praises of your name, O Most High.
3 My enemies turn back;
they stumble and perish before you.
Remember to give thanks and to praise God through this difficult and stressful time. It does not have to be stressful when we are filled with the joy of Jesus!! :D
Praying for your strength and joy this week my friends. May you be blessed with smiles and laughter from Jesus our king!
Listen to this song...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Gcrx2Ab0FM
Together we stand. God is by your side. He has your hand. He won't give in or give up on you, just keep holding on! We shall make it through this week. Just stay strong! He is here for you. Nothing you can say or do will change that, for the truth is He will never leave you or forsake you.
Now go and hit those books, knowing that Jesus is the best study p
artner of all!
Friday, December 10, 2010
Know Where You Belong
12/10/2010
Today has been both the best and worse day of the week. Like I had mentioned before, God has been pulling on my heart to spend some much needed time with him, and I have been putting it off. There will be a time that I shall have a sudden urge that I depersately need to pray for someone. A couple times I did, but mostly I put if off, saying I would go to the prayer room after I finish this one last little thing. Of course after finishing that one "little" thing, I ended up talking to people and never getting my alone time with Him that I desperatly was in need of.
I just now got back from an amazing walk. It was probably only about an hour, but it was well worth it. Started crying and walked down to the island, sat in the snow for awhile. It is a suprisingly warm night out! I wasn't cold. The clouds were beautiful and the snow glistened as it packed beneath my feet. I trudged around the footprint ridden fluff in sneakers, suceeded in making my pants throuhoutly wet. I hardly noticed though, I was enraptured with my king.
I wish I could remember all that I was saying to Him. It was a pretty epic convo.
So yeah, today was orchestra praise chapel. I have been to one before, don't remember if it was here or at Bethel last year. It is absoloutlely be-u-ti-ful to sing with so many instruments praising you! Kellow didn't have anyone to go with, so I was blessed with being able to invite her along to sit with me. I am not very chatty today, but it was good to just spend a bit of time with the roomie. Then I got a text from TeeHee who said she saw me! I waved. She plays the cello you see, and is very good at it I might add. So she was on stage. I actually saw her before she saw me and I was pulling out my phone to tell her "good luck." She beat me to it though. :) Made me very happy actually! So the time there was amazing, I have been to chapel like, 7 extra times already, but am going again tomorrow to listen to the chilren's choir. Should be good.
I was going to put all my intellectual thoughts down tonight, but I am going to actually do some homework now and come back to this post. So hopefully I shall remember all that God has told me. Yet how could I forget? He is incredible. Amazing. Fantastic!!
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12/11/2010
Yeah, so it has been quite the week. Now that classes are over for the semester, I just have a gigantic chemistry lab to do and 3 finals! I have already cried over this lab. All algebra...makes me want to quit SO badly. But just 5 more days, just 5 more days, then home again.
Now where was I? I forgot. Well, it is alright. I talked to God about it, which was the important thing.
In chapel yesterday there was a part where the lights changed from snowflakes on the walls to round dots of light. On the far left wall, there was a particular angle that make the dots look like metal glowing balls. I then started thinking of charged particles, aka ions, and how they disolve in solutions or are used as radioactive tracers or C-14 in carbon dating...Sigh...I have become a nerd. LOL. A friend mentioned that it is good to see that I am in the right major, but after the last couple of days I have been doubting. It is too late to change now however, finals are here! So I shall stick it out. There shall be a lot of prayer needed over break. We shall see where God leads.
Grant from chemistry sits right across from my partner and I. He is a broadcasting major that is taking Chem 1 JUST FOR FUN!! Crazyness. He is one of the genious in the class too. Those are the people that I say, well God, you know what they need to do! But if it was me, I would say change your focus of study to what you are good at. Then that makes me think of how I am NOT good at bio and I just get depressed.
It is important to not focus on comparing yourself to others though. That is what trips me up a LOT. I was reminded by Jesus just the other day of what we were taught those many months ago during orientation and those aweful break-out chapels. It is this - Appreciate the talents others have. Don't waste your emotions feeling sorry for yourself that you cannot do this thing or that. Be glad that others can, and use the talents you DO have to the glory of God.
Seems so common sense, but it is easy for me to fall into negative thinking. I am not involved in ANYTHING this semester. I really want to be involved in stuff next semester. Something important AND something fun. I watch all my friends sing beautiful music in chior, play the most wonderful instruments in band and orchestra, have hilarious fun with acting in the theatre, staying active in track and volleyball, and various other activities. It makes me feel very LAME for not doing ANYTHING. Then I get depressed and start listening to Satan's lies that I am not good at anything. That is so not true! I may not have the same talents as they, and my talents might be lame boring things like organizing and planning, but they are talents all the same. I must learn to not envy those gifts that God gave to others and learn to respect and use those that He gave me.
Then I start to wonder if it is possible to learn gifts? Me no know. But the point of the matter is to be glad that you are blessed with being YOU. Things could be much much worse off than they are. What a blessing God is to those who are faithful! He gives us everything we need. My God is an awesome God!
Be glad for those people who are so amazing and can do everything well. Learn from them. Be not content in your relationship with God, seek for more, but be content in knowing that you are in His hands, and He has got a plan for YOU!
Philippians 4:17
Not that I desire your gifts; what I desire is that more be credited to your account.
Today has been both the best and worse day of the week. Like I had mentioned before, God has been pulling on my heart to spend some much needed time with him, and I have been putting it off. There will be a time that I shall have a sudden urge that I depersately need to pray for someone. A couple times I did, but mostly I put if off, saying I would go to the prayer room after I finish this one last little thing. Of course after finishing that one "little" thing, I ended up talking to people and never getting my alone time with Him that I desperatly was in need of.
I just now got back from an amazing walk. It was probably only about an hour, but it was well worth it. Started crying and walked down to the island, sat in the snow for awhile. It is a suprisingly warm night out! I wasn't cold. The clouds were beautiful and the snow glistened as it packed beneath my feet. I trudged around the footprint ridden fluff in sneakers, suceeded in making my pants throuhoutly wet. I hardly noticed though, I was enraptured with my king.
I wish I could remember all that I was saying to Him. It was a pretty epic convo.
So yeah, today was orchestra praise chapel. I have been to one before, don't remember if it was here or at Bethel last year. It is absoloutlely be-u-ti-ful to sing with so many instruments praising you! Kellow didn't have anyone to go with, so I was blessed with being able to invite her along to sit with me. I am not very chatty today, but it was good to just spend a bit of time with the roomie. Then I got a text from TeeHee who said she saw me! I waved. She plays the cello you see, and is very good at it I might add. So she was on stage. I actually saw her before she saw me and I was pulling out my phone to tell her "good luck." She beat me to it though. :) Made me very happy actually! So the time there was amazing, I have been to chapel like, 7 extra times already, but am going again tomorrow to listen to the chilren's choir. Should be good.
I was going to put all my intellectual thoughts down tonight, but I am going to actually do some homework now and come back to this post. So hopefully I shall remember all that God has told me. Yet how could I forget? He is incredible. Amazing. Fantastic!!
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12/11/2010
Yeah, so it has been quite the week. Now that classes are over for the semester, I just have a gigantic chemistry lab to do and 3 finals! I have already cried over this lab. All algebra...makes me want to quit SO badly. But just 5 more days, just 5 more days, then home again.
Now where was I? I forgot. Well, it is alright. I talked to God about it, which was the important thing.
In chapel yesterday there was a part where the lights changed from snowflakes on the walls to round dots of light. On the far left wall, there was a particular angle that make the dots look like metal glowing balls. I then started thinking of charged particles, aka ions, and how they disolve in solutions or are used as radioactive tracers or C-14 in carbon dating...Sigh...I have become a nerd. LOL. A friend mentioned that it is good to see that I am in the right major, but after the last couple of days I have been doubting. It is too late to change now however, finals are here! So I shall stick it out. There shall be a lot of prayer needed over break. We shall see where God leads.
Grant from chemistry sits right across from my partner and I. He is a broadcasting major that is taking Chem 1 JUST FOR FUN!! Crazyness. He is one of the genious in the class too. Those are the people that I say, well God, you know what they need to do! But if it was me, I would say change your focus of study to what you are good at. Then that makes me think of how I am NOT good at bio and I just get depressed.
It is important to not focus on comparing yourself to others though. That is what trips me up a LOT. I was reminded by Jesus just the other day of what we were taught those many months ago during orientation and those aweful break-out chapels. It is this - Appreciate the talents others have. Don't waste your emotions feeling sorry for yourself that you cannot do this thing or that. Be glad that others can, and use the talents you DO have to the glory of God.
Seems so common sense, but it is easy for me to fall into negative thinking. I am not involved in ANYTHING this semester. I really want to be involved in stuff next semester. Something important AND something fun. I watch all my friends sing beautiful music in chior, play the most wonderful instruments in band and orchestra, have hilarious fun with acting in the theatre, staying active in track and volleyball, and various other activities. It makes me feel very LAME for not doing ANYTHING. Then I get depressed and start listening to Satan's lies that I am not good at anything. That is so not true! I may not have the same talents as they, and my talents might be lame boring things like organizing and planning, but they are talents all the same. I must learn to not envy those gifts that God gave to others and learn to respect and use those that He gave me.
Then I start to wonder if it is possible to learn gifts? Me no know. But the point of the matter is to be glad that you are blessed with being YOU. Things could be much much worse off than they are. What a blessing God is to those who are faithful! He gives us everything we need. My God is an awesome God!
Be glad for those people who are so amazing and can do everything well. Learn from them. Be not content in your relationship with God, seek for more, but be content in knowing that you are in His hands, and He has got a plan for YOU!
Philippians 4:17
Not that I desire your gifts; what I desire is that more be credited to your account.
Romans 12:5-8
5 so in Christ we, though many, form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. 6 We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your[a] faith; 7 if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then teach; 8 if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead,[b] do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Words of Encouragement (Rom. 8)
You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance.
(God will protect us from DEATH by finals...only half joking) Psalm 32:7-8
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jer. 29:11
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness
Rom. 8:26
You, however, are not in the realm of the flesh but are in the realm of the Spirit. (we do not rely on feelings!)
Rom. 8:9
I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.(keep pressing on, we cannot see the whole picture yet.)
Rom. 8:18
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
Rom. 8:28
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future,
nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord!
Rom. 8:38
(God will protect us from DEATH by finals...only half joking) Psalm 32:7-8
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jer. 29:11
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness
Rom. 8:26
You, however, are not in the realm of the flesh but are in the realm of the Spirit. (we do not rely on feelings!)
Rom. 8:9
I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.(keep pressing on, we cannot see the whole picture yet.)
Rom. 8:18
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
Rom. 8:28
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future,
nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord!
Rom. 8:38
Life Living For Jesus!
Today I only did homework for OT. So bad, but I just have no motivation at all to study for bio and chem! Which is what I need the most help in right now... :\
Pray I get some motivation, strong motivation, soon and very soon. Without including all the stress that makes me sick either.
I haven't had any God time in awhile...I mean, I talk to him on various occasions and time throughout the day, but no time spent to just intensively pray for others, and I really need that. I just had a really good long talk with my friend Italy. She is so amazing and such a godly friend, I love her. :)
SO since I don't have to get up til 10am tomorrow for chapel, I am staying up a bit longer to chat with my heavenly father. He is so wonderful! I love how he lets me rant to him all the time. It is weird, I never have a problem telling Jesus stuff. It is a rare relationship I can find between people where I actually open up and talk though. I mean, if I don't have anything worthwhile to say, why bother? So I don't. But Italy and TeeHee and Sleuthy, I have somehow been ok with sharing stuff and being close friends. I love it. Thanks my Jesus for giving me such amazing friends in such a short time. I don't feel I know them that well though, and really want to get to know them more. Like, you hear about how adults have lasting relationships with their friends from college. I wonder if those friends were the same that they meet early on in their 4 years? I hope so, cause I wouldn't wanna loose these gals. They are mine now! LOL.
Anyhows, I went to the Bathrobe Dramas tonight. They are little Christmas skits put on by students, and if you wear a bathrobe you get in free. I was borrowing my roomie's, but couldn't find it at first cause she said it was plaid, and it is really checked. :p haha. They were quite amazing for the short time that they had to practice them! Granted, 3 were only like 7 min or something. I loved the superhero santa, the grandma one (TeeHee was in it! playing a preggie. que hilarious.) was cute! the writer one was random (15 ppl die from vending machines each yr?!) and the last was the best I think, but I did NOT appreciate the dis to homeschoolers. Boo.
Yeah, so God has really been showing me that I need to just trust in Him. Like, everything will be ok. I shall NOT die because of finals, and I SHALL make it through with his power behind me and in front of me. His everlasting and unconditional love is incredible. Why can I not have that unconditional love for other people? Because we humans are fickle and lame, that is why. But I can sure try, like Italy said, it is a process to get our love to mirror that of God's love for us.
My Jesus - I would die and be dead without Him.
I used to think that a strong statement, but now I am totally comfortable saying it, cause I know it is true. IF I should ever turn away from my God, I would wanna die. I would deserve to die! I wouldn't want to ever live without my Jesus is the point of the matter. Is it really possible to love Him so much and not be able to truly show it? Not really. It seems if you love God it should just seep from your veins!
But I have allowed myself to get so stressed and wrapped around homework that I have not even talked about God or anything that I can recall over these past days...to bio friends a little I guess.
I just really miss that "feeling" of being so enthralled with God that it is all you talk about. Remember that it is not about the feelings though, that is where the faith comes in. I know, I shall trust in my Jesus forever no matter what I should feel in the sticky times. Sticky, I don't like it much either. It spiritually doesn't feel good to be stuck. Feels dead. But enough about feeling! Faith is believing. I know Jesus is here with us always and forever. So God, please be with my friends as we persevere on the rest of this journey to go into finals week. Help us to study well, retain the information we have studied, and to apply it to our tests, but more than that, to our lives and living. For that is the purpose overall, we want to apply our learning and knowledge to LIFE! Life living for you my Jesus.
Pray I get some motivation, strong motivation, soon and very soon. Without including all the stress that makes me sick either.
I haven't had any God time in awhile...I mean, I talk to him on various occasions and time throughout the day, but no time spent to just intensively pray for others, and I really need that. I just had a really good long talk with my friend Italy. She is so amazing and such a godly friend, I love her. :)
SO since I don't have to get up til 10am tomorrow for chapel, I am staying up a bit longer to chat with my heavenly father. He is so wonderful! I love how he lets me rant to him all the time. It is weird, I never have a problem telling Jesus stuff. It is a rare relationship I can find between people where I actually open up and talk though. I mean, if I don't have anything worthwhile to say, why bother? So I don't. But Italy and TeeHee and Sleuthy, I have somehow been ok with sharing stuff and being close friends. I love it. Thanks my Jesus for giving me such amazing friends in such a short time. I don't feel I know them that well though, and really want to get to know them more. Like, you hear about how adults have lasting relationships with their friends from college. I wonder if those friends were the same that they meet early on in their 4 years? I hope so, cause I wouldn't wanna loose these gals. They are mine now! LOL.
Anyhows, I went to the Bathrobe Dramas tonight. They are little Christmas skits put on by students, and if you wear a bathrobe you get in free. I was borrowing my roomie's, but couldn't find it at first cause she said it was plaid, and it is really checked. :p haha. They were quite amazing for the short time that they had to practice them! Granted, 3 were only like 7 min or something. I loved the superhero santa, the grandma one (TeeHee was in it! playing a preggie. que hilarious.) was cute! the writer one was random (15 ppl die from vending machines each yr?!) and the last was the best I think, but I did NOT appreciate the dis to homeschoolers. Boo.
Yeah, so God has really been showing me that I need to just trust in Him. Like, everything will be ok. I shall NOT die because of finals, and I SHALL make it through with his power behind me and in front of me. His everlasting and unconditional love is incredible. Why can I not have that unconditional love for other people? Because we humans are fickle and lame, that is why. But I can sure try, like Italy said, it is a process to get our love to mirror that of God's love for us.
My Jesus - I would die and be dead without Him.
I used to think that a strong statement, but now I am totally comfortable saying it, cause I know it is true. IF I should ever turn away from my God, I would wanna die. I would deserve to die! I wouldn't want to ever live without my Jesus is the point of the matter. Is it really possible to love Him so much and not be able to truly show it? Not really. It seems if you love God it should just seep from your veins!
But I have allowed myself to get so stressed and wrapped around homework that I have not even talked about God or anything that I can recall over these past days...to bio friends a little I guess.
I just really miss that "feeling" of being so enthralled with God that it is all you talk about. Remember that it is not about the feelings though, that is where the faith comes in. I know, I shall trust in my Jesus forever no matter what I should feel in the sticky times. Sticky, I don't like it much either. It spiritually doesn't feel good to be stuck. Feels dead. But enough about feeling! Faith is believing. I know Jesus is here with us always and forever. So God, please be with my friends as we persevere on the rest of this journey to go into finals week. Help us to study well, retain the information we have studied, and to apply it to our tests, but more than that, to our lives and living. For that is the purpose overall, we want to apply our learning and knowledge to LIFE! Life living for you my Jesus.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
When You Call on Jesus, All Things Are Possible!
So, 2 weeks before finals I started studying for the big bio test. Haven't stopped since! Chem is 10:30am on Monday, haven't started for that even. Was SUPER disappointed yesterday when I didn't get to participate in Christmas Extravaganza (a day where the halls decorate their doorways with a Christmas theme). Of course Doc Deer Slayer decided to have a review session for the final that day. Well, to be fair, the review sessions are always at that time. But still. I couldn't skip just this one night!!! Urgh.
I saw this really funny quote from a friend today..
I saw this really funny quote from a friend today..
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Better - Because of God
So I am not as quite depressed as yesterday. A good 9 hours of sleep probably helped with that. I did end up studying all day today though! Well, after chem got done at 3 that is. Was able to review notes with a couple fellow ladies from class, so that was awesome cause then I actually understood Doc Crane's confusing way of teaching. Urgh. So I am feeling better about being able to figure out this homework.
You know, it is amazing how encouraging friends can be when they do not even know what is going on in your life. :) Like, after reviewing notes I was more cheerful. After dinner today I was more cheerful, and after Bible study as well. Even though my study plans with TeeHee didn't work out, I gots to talk with my bestie hall mate and that was fun. God is really pretty good about pestering you to remind you that it is NOT all about you. It is all about Him. Sometimes the best pick-me-up from depression is praying for another person in need. Weird at first, since you don't know what to say. Yet, you can relate to them more in your frusteration and somehow it turns into a more sincere prayer. I dunno...
So still wondering what to do about job and church and scholarships. Need to take time to figure that all out tomorrow. Not able to meet with my tutor, so I shall have more time to sleep in and study tomorrow before chem lab at 3pm. SIGH. But I promised Italy that I should go to bed before it is too late (2am) and it just turned 2 now. So I supposed I should go...heh.
I miss being able to read the Bible and actually comprehend it. This has been bothering me a lot lately. All this OT reading has just been going in one ear and out the other! I am not sure any of the material is even relevant to my life, cause I seriously don't get it. :\ Like, at all. It just makes me frusterated to read the Bible (even with my own devos!) cause I just am not understanding it right now. This is not a good thing atal. Not atal. Hmm. Me need a lot more prayer about this for sure.
But ok, I shall bid thee farewell...You know, I really wish I was good at poetry. I just read 3 super good ones written by friends, and my adviser invited me to a poetry meeting thing that was last night, and I actually forgot about it. :\ But I wanted to go! Just dunno what I would do since I don't really write poetry. Hmm. Such a broad genre that a lot of stuff could fit into though. I guess. Me no know. It is sleepy time, k, goodnight my friends!
Oh, Italy mentioned that Violent and Silent rhyme. Me thinks she needs to make a poem from that. Sounds cool, and could involve secret ninjas. hehe. ;)
"In the past God spoke to our ancestors through the prophets at many times and in various ways, but in these last days he has spoken to us by his Son, whom he appointed heir of all things, and through whom also he made the universe.” - Hebrews 1:1-2
You know, it is amazing how encouraging friends can be when they do not even know what is going on in your life. :) Like, after reviewing notes I was more cheerful. After dinner today I was more cheerful, and after Bible study as well. Even though my study plans with TeeHee didn't work out, I gots to talk with my bestie hall mate and that was fun. God is really pretty good about pestering you to remind you that it is NOT all about you. It is all about Him. Sometimes the best pick-me-up from depression is praying for another person in need. Weird at first, since you don't know what to say. Yet, you can relate to them more in your frusteration and somehow it turns into a more sincere prayer. I dunno...
So still wondering what to do about job and church and scholarships. Need to take time to figure that all out tomorrow. Not able to meet with my tutor, so I shall have more time to sleep in and study tomorrow before chem lab at 3pm. SIGH. But I promised Italy that I should go to bed before it is too late (2am) and it just turned 2 now. So I supposed I should go...heh.
I miss being able to read the Bible and actually comprehend it. This has been bothering me a lot lately. All this OT reading has just been going in one ear and out the other! I am not sure any of the material is even relevant to my life, cause I seriously don't get it. :\ Like, at all. It just makes me frusterated to read the Bible (even with my own devos!) cause I just am not understanding it right now. This is not a good thing atal. Not atal. Hmm. Me need a lot more prayer about this for sure.
But ok, I shall bid thee farewell...You know, I really wish I was good at poetry. I just read 3 super good ones written by friends, and my adviser invited me to a poetry meeting thing that was last night, and I actually forgot about it. :\ But I wanted to go! Just dunno what I would do since I don't really write poetry. Hmm. Such a broad genre that a lot of stuff could fit into though. I guess. Me no know. It is sleepy time, k, goodnight my friends!
Oh, Italy mentioned that Violent and Silent rhyme. Me thinks she needs to make a poem from that. Sounds cool, and could involve secret ninjas. hehe. ;)
"In the past God spoke to our ancestors through the prophets at many times and in various ways, but in these last days he has spoken to us by his Son, whom he appointed heir of all things, and through whom also he made the universe.” - Hebrews 1:1-2
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