My friend Kitty won the Dmae character design contest yesterday! It made me soooooo happy. :) We had talked about it some back during the snowtubing trip's bus ride so many weeks ago. She has been working on it since then, and all that hard work paying off puts a huge smile on my face.
During the art show I got a call from my supervisor at work, asking me to be responsible for getting my co-workers started and given keys. I agreed to do so, knowing the others would resent me for being given "authority" so to speak above them. They were chill with it for the most part, except Hair who was joking around that he was gonna hurt whoever decided he didn't get to be in charge. :p Whateves. It pleased me to be given something 'special' to do. My mom would always put higher expectations on my than on my siblings with chores and stuff. I enjoyed the extra work and responsibility that came with it! I have missed that somewhat. I guess it just made me happy because it shows that someone here trusts me. Which to me right now, is big. :)
K, so then after getting off work early (hurrah!) Kitty and I watched Transformers. I had never seen it before, and I actually enjoyed watching it. Sure it doesn't contain anything super spiritual, but the NAME pertains to my thoughts on life over the past week...
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So, I have been reading through this book called the 4:8 Principle by Tommy Newberry. Highly recommended by Italy who shoved it in my face one day and told me to read it, the book is based on this verse:
Philippians 4:8
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
The purpose of which is getting your views on life changed from - to +. I have struggled with negative crticism a LOT lately. Lately meaning the past year. Or two. It has been longer than that, but awhile back I did a devo much like this one and it changed my life for several months. Until...I started letting myself believe lies again.
So I am going to share a couple interesting things from today's reading.
"Everything you need to be joy-filled you already have."
Ooh, SHOCKWAVE. That one quote struck me hard. It makes me realize how selfish I am! When I think critically and negatively about others and myself and life in general, I am dissing all the blessings God has put in my life. I am forgetting that God is the one to put these blessings in my life. I look at the downside of the blessings instead of the topside! Haha, a little biology analogy...The underside of the leaf has holes (stomata) which are openings that let out H2O and let in CO2. Hot puffy air of pride is coming into my life by thinking negative thoughts, and the living water of God is slowly evaporating away. AHH! This has got to stop if I am ever to be grateful for the incredible blessings God has given me. There are SOOOO many of them! I have been looking at the gaps in relationships instead of the junctions. That is NOT following God's instruction to think on that which is good and healthy. You are abundantly blessed today my friend - even if you do not notice or appreciate it. Its possible to find fault with anything...just depends what you are looking for.
"You prosper only to the ceiling your thoughts permit." So join me in raising the roof my friends! Join my in answering the following 5 questions to get your thoughts focused on those wonderful blessings God has given to us...I started doing it doubting it would help. But it actually did! Cause when you focus your mind on good and on GOD you remember all other things fade in comparison...
1. What are 5 things I am thankful for right now?
- Hot Cherry Poptarts ;)
- Trees. They make me happy to climb!
- An amazing biology professor
- The process of speedy recovery for my little girl
- Kitty winning the Dmay contest!
2. What are 5 of my strengths or positive traits?
Ha, according to Strengthquest...Discipline. Learner. Responsibility. Harmony. Achiever. :p (those of you who know what that is...laugh away)
3. What are 5 of my best achievements so far?
- Cheering up Maul on a bad day
- Succeeding in being a fabulous ZooTeen ;)
- Raising over $200 for church missonaries just by recycling aluminum cans
- Graduating HS
- Getting my drivers license? :p That was quite the achievement for me for sure...
4. Who are the 5 people who love me the most?
This is a silly question since I cannot speak for them...but I would have to say
- Mom
- Ted Ontario
- Sissy
- Bright Eyes
- Italy
5. What 5 things am I looking forward to in the next 7 days?
Ooh, this is the toughest one. . .
- Carnival this afternoon
- Church tomorrow morning
- Bio lab on Thursday
- Going to the Opera with Sissy and KindHeart
- Succeeding in my 2 huge tests and quiz that are on the SAME. DAY.
Hmm, perhaps that shall get easier with practice? It actually took a long time. Makes me realize just how negative my thoughts have been. Well, the start of transfomation has begun. But only because of the love of Christ. :D
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2 Corinthians 3:18
And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.
Romans 12:2
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
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All this positive thinking reminds me of a very dated movie...you may know of it. Pollyanna anyone?
Kinda cheesy, but it WORKS. So think + my friends, and stay on the side of the leaf that collects the sunlight and stays green! :D Much love to you as we thrive in this journey together...
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Chemistry Poem
I awaited the start of another lecture in chemistry class one day, already feeling a down-heartened from the news I received just before regarding a test.
Little did I know the prof was going to promptly arrive and tell us the lecture was devoted to calculus. "If you have never taken calculus you can put your head on your desk and take a little nap. Cause none of this will make any sense to you," he said. "But for those of you who have taken calculus, this will be an example of how it can be used in the real world. If you can call chemistry the real world..."
He mumbled this last phrase.
It made me smile, but also silently cry. "Oh great," I thought. "Another lecture I won't understand. Hey, at least he warned me this time!"
I tried to follow along, taking notes for the most part. Though halfway through I let my mind wander for 30 seconds and found myself scribbling words in the margins of my notebook paper. I suppose you could call it a poem, if you would be so generous.
Well the point is, I promised to show it to Italy. So here you go my friend - you are the English major here, perhaps you can make more sense of it than I... X)
Second Order
Waist deep. Not sure if I'm half in or out.
Jittiring leg with a lead stomach.
Tightening scalp, watery eyes.
Want no one to see me.
Want no one to be me.
Integral to the minus X.
If only my brain could be integrated and not "Xed" out.
Am I making any sense? He sure isn't to me.
Lewit.
I hear ludacris.
Looking with confusion at the scratches made by the chicken.
Red and daunting.
Sympathy. Knowing I can't make it easy on myself.
How. Why.
I'm not perfect.
But neither is Wolfram Alpha!
Then it comes back to me.
Half-life.
Cause I'm only half living...
Decay.
Decompose.
Destroy.
Debunk!
Then perhaps I can half live.
Human scale.
God scale.
I'm diluted.
Middle school amneisa?
Works for my theory.
After 10 there is only 1/10% left.
Yup. Got that covered.
In foil, with a hole for whining substance to escape.
Almost 19 years.
When will the sample be small enough for measuring to be impossible?
You. Tell. Me.
Like the awkwardness of the night or an empty snyders bottle...
Half life. Its a constant.
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Moral Benefits of Wisdom
1 My son, if you accept my words
and store up my commands within you,
2 turning your ear to wisdom
and applying your heart to understanding—
3 indeed, if you call out for insight
and cry aloud for understanding,
4 and if you look for it as for silver
and search for it as for hidden treasure,
5 then you will understand the fear of the LORD
and find the knowledge of God.
6 For the LORD gives wisdom;
from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
7 He holds success in store for the upright,
he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
8 for he guards the course of the just
and protects the way of his faithful ones. 9 Then you will understand what is right and just
and fair—every good path.
10 For wisdom will enter your heart,
and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.
11 Discretion will protect you,
and understanding will guard you.
Ep. 4:29 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.
Little did I know the prof was going to promptly arrive and tell us the lecture was devoted to calculus. "If you have never taken calculus you can put your head on your desk and take a little nap. Cause none of this will make any sense to you," he said. "But for those of you who have taken calculus, this will be an example of how it can be used in the real world. If you can call chemistry the real world..."
He mumbled this last phrase.
It made me smile, but also silently cry. "Oh great," I thought. "Another lecture I won't understand. Hey, at least he warned me this time!"
I tried to follow along, taking notes for the most part. Though halfway through I let my mind wander for 30 seconds and found myself scribbling words in the margins of my notebook paper. I suppose you could call it a poem, if you would be so generous.
Well the point is, I promised to show it to Italy. So here you go my friend - you are the English major here, perhaps you can make more sense of it than I... X)
Second Order
Waist deep. Not sure if I'm half in or out.
Jittiring leg with a lead stomach.
Tightening scalp, watery eyes.
Want no one to see me.
Want no one to be me.
Integral to the minus X.
If only my brain could be integrated and not "Xed" out.
Am I making any sense? He sure isn't to me.
Lewit.
I hear ludacris.
Looking with confusion at the scratches made by the chicken.
Red and daunting.
Sympathy. Knowing I can't make it easy on myself.
How. Why.
I'm not perfect.
But neither is Wolfram Alpha!
Then it comes back to me.
Half-life.
Cause I'm only half living...
Decay.
Decompose.
Destroy.
Debunk!
Then perhaps I can half live.
Human scale.
God scale.
I'm diluted.
Middle school amneisa?
Works for my theory.
After 10 there is only 1/10% left.
Yup. Got that covered.
In foil, with a hole for whining substance to escape.
Almost 19 years.
When will the sample be small enough for measuring to be impossible?
You. Tell. Me.
Like the awkwardness of the night or an empty snyders bottle...
Half life. Its a constant.
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Here is a piece of a true poem for you, one that I enjoy and is far better than the former...
Proverbs 2Moral Benefits of Wisdom
1 My son, if you accept my words
and store up my commands within you,
2 turning your ear to wisdom
and applying your heart to understanding—
3 indeed, if you call out for insight
and cry aloud for understanding,
4 and if you look for it as for silver
and search for it as for hidden treasure,
5 then you will understand the fear of the LORD
and find the knowledge of God.
6 For the LORD gives wisdom;
from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
7 He holds success in store for the upright,
he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
8 for he guards the course of the just
and protects the way of his faithful ones. 9 Then you will understand what is right and just
and fair—every good path.
10 For wisdom will enter your heart,
and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.
11 Discretion will protect you,
and understanding will guard you.
Ep. 4:29 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.
Monday, March 7, 2011
Sydney Needs You Lord - Every Hour
Lord, I am super sad for my girls. Those two precious sweet things that I nannied for over the summer...their parents and dog too...I love them so much. It makes me want to cry after visiting them today. You see, little Sydney was diagnosed with lukemia a few months ago. Have been praying for her ever since, and her family too. Yet not as much as I should be praying. SO many incredible stories already of how God is working in their lives! I want to witness to them so very much. They are catholic, not sure if they are truly saved or not. Hard to know when they are so ritualistic about religion. I really wanna know more about catholics and what they believe. Italy talks about it a lot, and it sparks my interest as well.
Prone to wander Lord I feel my heart is. Prone to leave you Lord - whom I love!
I want for little Sydney to be well. To not be sick. I want her family to not have to see her going through such a hard time. I want to be able to help! I hadn't been able to visit since Christmas. I missed them so much.
Its hard seeing little Sydney not herself. She is the most hyper little 4 yr old you ever did meet. Quite the character. Boy Oh Boy could I tell you stories. After recieving her 1st communion and asked by her mother what it felt like having Jesus so close, Sydney's response was: "well frankly mom, Jesus felt a little dry." BAH HA! It is only funny cause I know she does understand what communion is. As much as can be expected from one so young.
She is responding well to the kemo (how do you SPELL that?) After a spritual encounter with what her mother thinks was angel, the next day the doctors found no more cancer cells in her blood. Praise God!! So now they are just using intense stuff to rid it from the marrow. :\
She is remaining positive through it all! "Kick it in the butt!" she says as her mother hands me a bag full of rubber braclets to pass out in rememberance to pray. "For sure!" I respond with a smile.
Sigh.
I wish there was something more I could do...
I love them so much and have faith she shall beat this cancer and LIVE! No doubts in my mind about that. It is just hard to see my second family going through so much hardship and struggle. I know how it is. Not with cancer personally, but quite the similar health stresses. Its hard. It hurts. And I wanna cry. But I remember that God is with them and shall help them gain the victory! We need you Lord to be with little Syndey and her fam. Comfort them that all is well. Bless them with your peace and courage that they SHALL make it through! The end is not so afar off....
Psalm 31:9
Be merciful to me, LORD, for I am in distress; my eyes grow weak with sorrow, my soul and body with grief.
Deuteronomy 31:6
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
Acts 3:16
By faith in the name of Jesus, this man whom you see and know was made strong. It is Jesus’ name and the faith that comes through him that has completely healed him, as you can all see
May we say that faith in our savior Jesus Christ has made her well! He is our Jehovah-Rapha.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
I am home...if only in my dreams.
I sit in a almost dark room listening to my little sis's annoying Christmas music. Yes, in March. Somehow she listens to it as she sleeps? I never understand how people fall asleep listening to music. It keeps me awake. :s
So my family is frustrating. It tears my heart out to see and hear them gossip, argue, and just plain HATE each other. WE ARE FAMILY FOR GOODNESS SAKE!! (Can I say that? Goodness sake? Sorrwy if not Christian enough for yah.) WHHHYYYYYYYY?!?!?!?!?!!
:(
I want to make it better. But my mom is not happy with me right now. You see, my older sister goes to college too. Same one. (Shall have to tell that story later...) She lives at home. I don't. I have always wanted to live in the dorms. So I did/do. I guess she is having troubles "cutting the apron strings" as they say. I even act like I am older. I am even taller. :) Hehe.
But seriously, I want to have a good relationship with everyone in my family. It just seems like mom is always mad at me, which makes me annoyed, and gets ME mad at HER. Sigh. Then the situation causes me to become mad at myself and all disappointed and down-heartened because her argued points sometimes make sense or cause me to question my motives. Perhaps I should just not tell her anything I do, think, or say anymore. That will solve it. . .NOT.
Do you remember when it used to be cool to be sarcastic and then say "not"? I liked that. It helped me understand sarcasm. Haha, I seriously DON'T get it anymore. Kinda funny. For others anyways. They laugh at me. I smile at them. It works I guess.
I never like to bring friends home or tell my mom about my friends anymore because she never approves of my choices. I think they are wonderful people! Super godly and blessed with amazing personalities and smartness. The only friend she likes of mine is Katana. Honest to goodness, I cannot remember another friend she approved of except for 3rd grade Rachel whom I am not in contact with any longer. It makes me feel like a rotten daughter for thinking so lowly of my mother. I respect her a lot. She has good insight into people and spiritual matters for the most part. She is far more mature than I. She is older than I. I should listen to her, yes? But I often do not. She calls me naive. Hits the nail on the head with that one - I totally am. Sigh.
I hate gossip. It rips a family apart! I hate how we all go to different churches. Especially that mom and dad don't go together. They haven't for years now. Don't even remember the last time we all went to a church together twice in a row. Not to mention the same church twice in a row! Seems like Dad and Ted have picked one again. Sigh.
Why do people have to be so...so...so...FICKLE. Hmm? WHY. I just wanna fix it all.
God, please put your thumb print on my family.
No more pins stuck in it to deal with later.
No bolting out of heavy situations.
Nope, we need a solution.
Not of SCN and NaCl.
A solution of peace and harmony with the life giving water of your salvation.
We need to be saved from the light talk of daily to-dos, and draw into the density of your love and bread of life.
That tasty treat of gossip pinches.
It sinks like a gator tooth into my skin.
Pencil lead that cannot be removed.
Slowly poisoning me with the fact that graphite is not detrimental.
But the truth is it lingers.
It ferments. Just like communion wine. They both symbolize death.
One brings results!
They can be typed up on a page...but only those that are LIVED out matter.
Matter you say? Def: something that takes up space.
Well, gossip is taking up space in my life. Its consuming me.
Its putting more pressure than 66 bars. More than 70+ meters of water.
I don't want the pressure equalized. I JUST WANT IT GONE.
G.O.N.E. Get Off. Never Ever COME BACK.
Nothing can eat you up like a juicy slice of dissent. A sweet taste of misery. A chewy bite of frustration.
It all leads to gossip...and death.
D.E.A.T.H. doing evil and then hell.
Well those are my thoughts for the moment. If you ever make sense of them, text me sometime and explain them to me will you? Thanks friend.
When I come home...I am concerned I may not find you as I want you to be...
2 Corinthians 12:20
For I am afraid that when I come I may not find you as I want you to be, and you may not find me as you want me to be. I fear that there may be discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, slander, gossip, arrogance and disorder.
The sad thing is...that is usually how I find you.
*prays*
So my family is frustrating. It tears my heart out to see and hear them gossip, argue, and just plain HATE each other. WE ARE FAMILY FOR GOODNESS SAKE!! (Can I say that? Goodness sake? Sorrwy if not Christian enough for yah.) WHHHYYYYYYYY?!?!?!?!?!!
:(
I want to make it better. But my mom is not happy with me right now. You see, my older sister goes to college too. Same one. (Shall have to tell that story later...) She lives at home. I don't. I have always wanted to live in the dorms. So I did/do. I guess she is having troubles "cutting the apron strings" as they say. I even act like I am older. I am even taller. :) Hehe.
But seriously, I want to have a good relationship with everyone in my family. It just seems like mom is always mad at me, which makes me annoyed, and gets ME mad at HER. Sigh. Then the situation causes me to become mad at myself and all disappointed and down-heartened because her argued points sometimes make sense or cause me to question my motives. Perhaps I should just not tell her anything I do, think, or say anymore. That will solve it. . .NOT.
Do you remember when it used to be cool to be sarcastic and then say "not"? I liked that. It helped me understand sarcasm. Haha, I seriously DON'T get it anymore. Kinda funny. For others anyways. They laugh at me. I smile at them. It works I guess.
I never like to bring friends home or tell my mom about my friends anymore because she never approves of my choices. I think they are wonderful people! Super godly and blessed with amazing personalities and smartness. The only friend she likes of mine is Katana. Honest to goodness, I cannot remember another friend she approved of except for 3rd grade Rachel whom I am not in contact with any longer. It makes me feel like a rotten daughter for thinking so lowly of my mother. I respect her a lot. She has good insight into people and spiritual matters for the most part. She is far more mature than I. She is older than I. I should listen to her, yes? But I often do not. She calls me naive. Hits the nail on the head with that one - I totally am. Sigh.
I hate gossip. It rips a family apart! I hate how we all go to different churches. Especially that mom and dad don't go together. They haven't for years now. Don't even remember the last time we all went to a church together twice in a row. Not to mention the same church twice in a row! Seems like Dad and Ted have picked one again. Sigh.
Why do people have to be so...so...so...FICKLE. Hmm? WHY. I just wanna fix it all.
God, please put your thumb print on my family.
No more pins stuck in it to deal with later.
No bolting out of heavy situations.
Nope, we need a solution.
Not of SCN and NaCl.
A solution of peace and harmony with the life giving water of your salvation.
We need to be saved from the light talk of daily to-dos, and draw into the density of your love and bread of life.
That tasty treat of gossip pinches.
It sinks like a gator tooth into my skin.
Pencil lead that cannot be removed.
Slowly poisoning me with the fact that graphite is not detrimental.
But the truth is it lingers.
It ferments. Just like communion wine. They both symbolize death.
One brings results!
They can be typed up on a page...but only those that are LIVED out matter.
Matter you say? Def: something that takes up space.
Well, gossip is taking up space in my life. Its consuming me.
Its putting more pressure than 66 bars. More than 70+ meters of water.
I don't want the pressure equalized. I JUST WANT IT GONE.
G.O.N.E. Get Off. Never Ever COME BACK.
Nothing can eat you up like a juicy slice of dissent. A sweet taste of misery. A chewy bite of frustration.
It all leads to gossip...and death.
D.E.A.T.H. doing evil and then hell.
Well those are my thoughts for the moment. If you ever make sense of them, text me sometime and explain them to me will you? Thanks friend.
When I come home...I am concerned I may not find you as I want you to be...
2 Corinthians 12:20
For I am afraid that when I come I may not find you as I want you to be, and you may not find me as you want me to be. I fear that there may be discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, slander, gossip, arrogance and disorder.
The sad thing is...that is usually how I find you.
*prays*
Sir Laugh-A-Lot
So Ted's friend Mt Dew came over today. He is loud, obnoxious, and an awesome friend to Ted. I am glad he has him. Anyways, he started telling jokes today after they were done watching the NASCAR race. The jokes were HILARIOUS!!!!!! Seriously, this dude could be a comedian. Or youth pastor. Either or, yah know. LOL. So I shall attempt to retell one, though it isn't as funny as in person when you can make it all dramatic. Here goes. . .
One day it was getting particularly crowded in heaven, so God decided to only let in anyone who had a REALLY bad day when they died. Peter stood at the gate as usual, asking each person to step forward and explain what happened when they died.
Peter said to the first man to come to the gate, "Tell me about the day you died."
"OK, so it was really awful! I heard my wife was having an affair, so I came home from work early to catch her in the act. I searched all around my apartment, but could find no one! So I went out onto the balcony (I live on the 25th floor you see) and there was a man hanging off the edge!"
"I went back inside, promptly grabbing a hammer, and returned to crush the tips of his fingers. He fell, but into some bushes. So I took my fridge and pushed it over the edge of the balcony. It landed on top of him, crushing him. The shock from pushing the fridge gave me a heart attack, and I died."
Peter admitted that was quite the bad day, so he let the man into heaven.
Peter asked the second man,"how was the day you died?"
"Oh it was horrible!" the man said, "I was doing aerobics on my 26th floor apartment balcony when I twisted my ankle and fell! Fortunately, I was able to catch hold of the balcony below. But then some idiot came out and started hitting my hands with a hammer!! I couldn't hold on, so I fell (luckily there were some bushes below) only to have a fridge fall on top of me! It crushed me and I died."
Peter laughed quietly to himself thinking, "Wow, I could really start to like my job!" He let this man in too.
He continued by asking the third man, "How did you die?"
The man replied, "Picture this...I was naked. Hiding inside a refridgerator..."
BAH HAHA!!
Totally pulling this out of context but...
Gen. 21:6
“God has brought me laughter, and everyone who hears about this will laugh with me.”
Psalm 37:13
but the Lord laughs at the wicked, for he knows their day is coming.
One day it was getting particularly crowded in heaven, so God decided to only let in anyone who had a REALLY bad day when they died. Peter stood at the gate as usual, asking each person to step forward and explain what happened when they died.
Peter said to the first man to come to the gate, "Tell me about the day you died."
"OK, so it was really awful! I heard my wife was having an affair, so I came home from work early to catch her in the act. I searched all around my apartment, but could find no one! So I went out onto the balcony (I live on the 25th floor you see) and there was a man hanging off the edge!"
"I went back inside, promptly grabbing a hammer, and returned to crush the tips of his fingers. He fell, but into some bushes. So I took my fridge and pushed it over the edge of the balcony. It landed on top of him, crushing him. The shock from pushing the fridge gave me a heart attack, and I died."
Peter admitted that was quite the bad day, so he let the man into heaven.
Peter asked the second man,"how was the day you died?"
"Oh it was horrible!" the man said, "I was doing aerobics on my 26th floor apartment balcony when I twisted my ankle and fell! Fortunately, I was able to catch hold of the balcony below. But then some idiot came out and started hitting my hands with a hammer!! I couldn't hold on, so I fell (luckily there were some bushes below) only to have a fridge fall on top of me! It crushed me and I died."
Peter laughed quietly to himself thinking, "Wow, I could really start to like my job!" He let this man in too.
He continued by asking the third man, "How did you die?"
The man replied, "Picture this...I was naked. Hiding inside a refridgerator..."
BAH HAHA!!
Totally pulling this out of context but...
Gen. 21:6
“God has brought me laughter, and everyone who hears about this will laugh with me.”
Psalm 37:13
but the Lord laughs at the wicked, for he knows their day is coming.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Basement Drama
If you ever want to see some really powerful dramas, look up basement drama team on youtube sometime. Wow. How they freeze in those akward positions and remain still for so long is amazing. Yet even more so than their talent for acting is their talent for getting a point across spiritually.
Have you ever thought that demons could torment our Lord? I guess I had never thought of that. Yet just as the fouls of the devil torment us, so can they torment our savior. Is this correct? Please give input.
I mean, Jesus was tempted by Satan during his 40 day fast. Tempted to eat, to throw himself down, to worship Satan...basically tempted to test God. To test if God is who He says He is. Can He really save us from hunger? Thirst? Pain? Shall He really fulfill His promises? Well...the answer is yes of course.
But isn't it so easy to fall into that trap of testing God? Putting pressure on Him to follow through and give you things. Expecting Him to protect you from all emotional stress and sorrow. I forget to trust in God. To trust that He knows what He is doing. Is it really our place to test God? Deut. 6:16. God is supposed to test us. Ex. 20:20
Hmm. This I wonder about...
Well, my life has been quite in the basement. Its been dramatic and I have kept much in the dark. Guess the title of this post suits. Don't know if I can really explain it all...other than saying that these past couple of months have drastically altered me. I have grown so so much in my relationship with God and my outlook on life in these past weeks. Late nights talking with friends in the dorms, prayer sessions with God in quiet rooms, wrestling with God through prayer at work and during walks, cry parties over homework, the Word seeping into my life...Hmm.
I don't often like sharing what I am going through spiritually with others. Its kinda hard for me from past experiences and negative responses from others when I have done so in the past. But God is working, and my heart is being softened to allow me to comfortably talk about deep matters with friends. Its getting there. I am glad of it. I would not trade these last few months of living in the dorms for...well, anything. I love the experiences that God has challenged me with. I know there are more to come. It is hard. Very hard. I want to give up, but Jesus keeps me moving forward. Isn't He just the most amazing father? He truly is my only one true father. My true parent. He never breaks or crumbles. Jesus is stronger than that. <3 Hmm. Thank you my friends for your prayers. They are much appreciated and felt as comfort from above.
Matthew 26:41
“Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.”
Have you ever thought that demons could torment our Lord? I guess I had never thought of that. Yet just as the fouls of the devil torment us, so can they torment our savior. Is this correct? Please give input.
I mean, Jesus was tempted by Satan during his 40 day fast. Tempted to eat, to throw himself down, to worship Satan...basically tempted to test God. To test if God is who He says He is. Can He really save us from hunger? Thirst? Pain? Shall He really fulfill His promises? Well...the answer is yes of course.
But isn't it so easy to fall into that trap of testing God? Putting pressure on Him to follow through and give you things. Expecting Him to protect you from all emotional stress and sorrow. I forget to trust in God. To trust that He knows what He is doing. Is it really our place to test God? Deut. 6:16. God is supposed to test us. Ex. 20:20
Hmm. This I wonder about...
Well, my life has been quite in the basement. Its been dramatic and I have kept much in the dark. Guess the title of this post suits. Don't know if I can really explain it all...other than saying that these past couple of months have drastically altered me. I have grown so so much in my relationship with God and my outlook on life in these past weeks. Late nights talking with friends in the dorms, prayer sessions with God in quiet rooms, wrestling with God through prayer at work and during walks, cry parties over homework, the Word seeping into my life...Hmm.
I don't often like sharing what I am going through spiritually with others. Its kinda hard for me from past experiences and negative responses from others when I have done so in the past. But God is working, and my heart is being softened to allow me to comfortably talk about deep matters with friends. Its getting there. I am glad of it. I would not trade these last few months of living in the dorms for...well, anything. I love the experiences that God has challenged me with. I know there are more to come. It is hard. Very hard. I want to give up, but Jesus keeps me moving forward. Isn't He just the most amazing father? He truly is my only one true father. My true parent. He never breaks or crumbles. Jesus is stronger than that. <3 Hmm. Thank you my friends for your prayers. They are much appreciated and felt as comfort from above.
Matthew 26:41
“Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.”
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