As I stand admist the throng
of cheering voices and screaming songs
I wonder is this what life's about?
Hmm, I did not find that fulfilling at all. The best part was when he came and bumped me, scolding me for not having standing room tickets. She is super cute and friendly too. Hah, werid to see them outside of work...Why do I become so attached to friends? Sigh. Oh well. I shan't stop loving people because of it, just makes it lonely sometimes inbetween.
Scared for my internship learning...really scared. But excited for field bio. VERY excited. Prof is a great guy and happy to have him as a teacher. :)
For now, thoughts are seeping along the trail like a root from a strawberry...rhisomes they are called? IDK.
If you are reading this at a point other than a week from now, think to pray for my right foot. Its still rather sore and I need to RUN again! Becoming restless and tired and frustrated with it. :\
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Deceased Fish and a Saddened Soul
Its official - I no longer work for my boss-man. Now a new boss starting next week. *sigh* I shall miss him. What a good friend he has been. I don't think he even knows how much he has impacted me. Her too. I enjoy them muchly.
Well Lord, its up to you now. I kinda want to look for a different job. Don't wanna be stuck cleaning for the rest of my college career. Sounds selfish by quitting once the people who I enjoyed leave...but hey, I have been sick of cleaning for awhile and that was the only reason I stayed.
I am struggling with my heart and mind being focused on you Jesus! Thoughts wander astray far too often into daydreams about biology or summer plans or tropical fruit. Lord I love and devotedly follow you forever more <3
Yesterday Libs and I went to a funeral for a mutual friend's dad. It was extremely sad though I did not know him. Glad to be there for her and glad we were able to talk with her for a good while afterwards. Could surely tell she was having a hard time with it because she wasn't talking...whereas usually I struggle to get her to shut up and leave me to homework! LOL. It was a catholic ceremony...super weird for me because I have never been to a Catholic mass/church service before. Emphasis on communion and so very ritualistic. Made me sad for the altar boys up front - do they know the truth?! How did they get into such a position? Are they just chosen to be future priests? Do they become so? If then, how does their heart stand with matters of the gospel? Made me sad and my heart reach out to them...yearning for all in that place to know the truth! Even with it being a funeral all that were there were elderly...what about the young adult generation? Children? THEY NEED JESUS TOO! :\
I pray she continues to handle this loss...she has had so very much a hard time this year! Please Jesus - give her a rest period before more trials??
So Kitty's birthday was Sunday! After much frustration over poor communication in trying to plan a kidnapping for her, I took her to petsmart and she picked out 2 beta fish. One male and one female. After receiving two lectures by a worker and random fish-man about breeding (not our intentions) we walked out of the store very pleased and coo-ing at the little creatures. Sad to say, the day after a fungus infection spread largely over their bodies. We returned them to the store today for 2 different females, I pray these last much longer and survive the transition. After the whole frog thing many years ago you would think I would learn a lesson about purchasing live presents for people. OH well. I did try. OH! And we saw a cat today when we went back which was fabulous. :D
On a closing note, a piece of a hymn read in a new devo book from Halfprice that has touched my heart of late...
"Since my eyes have looked on Jesus, I've lost sight of all besides."
Something to remember during this time of more learning, transitions, growth, and well, growth. Focus on the Lord, the author and finisher of our faith! He shall not only get us through but is here with us NOW as we learn and grow. That knowledge is better than any hug! Though sometimes you cannot help but desire one at the moment. . . G'night my friends. Sleep well and dream of the day our Lord may say to us "faithful."
Well Lord, its up to you now. I kinda want to look for a different job. Don't wanna be stuck cleaning for the rest of my college career. Sounds selfish by quitting once the people who I enjoyed leave...but hey, I have been sick of cleaning for awhile and that was the only reason I stayed.
I am struggling with my heart and mind being focused on you Jesus! Thoughts wander astray far too often into daydreams about biology or summer plans or tropical fruit. Lord I love and devotedly follow you forever more <3
Yesterday Libs and I went to a funeral for a mutual friend's dad. It was extremely sad though I did not know him. Glad to be there for her and glad we were able to talk with her for a good while afterwards. Could surely tell she was having a hard time with it because she wasn't talking...whereas usually I struggle to get her to shut up and leave me to homework! LOL. It was a catholic ceremony...super weird for me because I have never been to a Catholic mass/church service before. Emphasis on communion and so very ritualistic. Made me sad for the altar boys up front - do they know the truth?! How did they get into such a position? Are they just chosen to be future priests? Do they become so? If then, how does their heart stand with matters of the gospel? Made me sad and my heart reach out to them...yearning for all in that place to know the truth! Even with it being a funeral all that were there were elderly...what about the young adult generation? Children? THEY NEED JESUS TOO! :\
I pray she continues to handle this loss...she has had so very much a hard time this year! Please Jesus - give her a rest period before more trials??
So Kitty's birthday was Sunday! After much frustration over poor communication in trying to plan a kidnapping for her, I took her to petsmart and she picked out 2 beta fish. One male and one female. After receiving two lectures by a worker and random fish-man about breeding (not our intentions) we walked out of the store very pleased and coo-ing at the little creatures. Sad to say, the day after a fungus infection spread largely over their bodies. We returned them to the store today for 2 different females, I pray these last much longer and survive the transition. After the whole frog thing many years ago you would think I would learn a lesson about purchasing live presents for people. OH well. I did try. OH! And we saw a cat today when we went back which was fabulous. :D
On a closing note, a piece of a hymn read in a new devo book from Halfprice that has touched my heart of late...
"Since my eyes have looked on Jesus, I've lost sight of all besides."
Something to remember during this time of more learning, transitions, growth, and well, growth. Focus on the Lord, the author and finisher of our faith! He shall not only get us through but is here with us NOW as we learn and grow. That knowledge is better than any hug! Though sometimes you cannot help but desire one at the moment. . . G'night my friends. Sleep well and dream of the day our Lord may say to us "faithful."
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